tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11298117075371136342024-03-13T22:44:00.907-07:00Just thinkin' out loud....Could use every cliche under the sun but facts are this blog is about me going from Ms. Fattyboomstix down to Ms. Yummy Mummy with the assistance of a Lap Band.EBDanihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17262663081899785074noreply@blogger.comBlogger12125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1129811707537113634.post-7867355366365720682009-06-02T14:36:00.001-07:002009-06-02T14:39:54.262-07:00The main pic I forgot to add....<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_AbBP0PQ8zik/SiWbrjaYv-I/AAAAAAAAADE/IYsg72ZjJJc/s1600-h/IMG_0819.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5342847705487556578" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_AbBP0PQ8zik/SiWbrjaYv-I/AAAAAAAAADE/IYsg72ZjJJc/s320/IMG_0819.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><div align="center">*Be still my beating ♥ ♥ ♥*</div><div align="center"></div><div align="center">1 x V. proud <span style="font-size:78%;">(slightly gushy!)</span> Mama </div><div align="center"> </div><div align="center"><em><span style="color:#993399;"><strong>(Tip: Double click on pics to see as bigger size.....)</strong></span></em></div>EBDanihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17262663081899785074noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1129811707537113634.post-81691186866995382962009-06-02T13:26:00.000-07:002009-06-02T13:59:23.161-07:00Completely random pics for the fam....<div align="center"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_AbBP0PQ8zik/SiWRdRAeP9I/AAAAAAAAAC8/iEhFCzerZmk/s1600-h/CIMG0782.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5342836464912580562" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_AbBP0PQ8zik/SiWRdRAeP9I/AAAAAAAAAC8/iEhFCzerZmk/s320/CIMG0782.JPG" border="0" /></a>March '06 with my baby brother - must print this one out and whack on the fridge to remind me to get fill put BACK in my band so I don't wind up like this again. *yikes*<br /><div align="center"></div><br /><div align="center"></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"></div><div align="center"><br /> </div><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_AbBP0PQ8zik/SiWPjqrE6nI/AAAAAAAAACs/r6FSXKpyQeo/s1600-h/IMG_0575.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5342834375858121330" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 240px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 320px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_AbBP0PQ8zik/SiWPjqrE6nI/AAAAAAAAACs/r6FSXKpyQeo/s320/IMG_0575.JPG" border="0" /></a><br />Kinda the <strong>"NOW"</strong> pic....<br /><br /><br /><br /><div align="center">Taken 3 months ago...typical mother - always behind the camera and never in front of it (also typical ex-fat-chick-bad-habit-one-gets-into!) </div><div align="center">Definitely prior to "Blobbo" growing and subsequently being removed.....must don the dress again and see if noticeable "stomach distension" has shrunk...? LOL</div><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><div><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_AbBP0PQ8zik/SiWOzChqfvI/AAAAAAAAACk/-R4xB4GLPYI/s1600-h/fin.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5342833540447502066" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 240px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 320px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_AbBP0PQ8zik/SiWOzChqfvI/AAAAAAAAACk/-R4xB4GLPYI/s320/fin.jpg" border="0" /></a> Not the clearest shot (thanks to non-phone-savvy husband armed with his iPhone in the UK!) but shows what a handsome boy Master Fin is becoming. Loving the longer hair......quite a dish! </div><br /><div><br /><div></div><br /><br /><br /><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_AbBP0PQ8zik/SiWM9IlV5UI/AAAAAAAAACc/olDhW3OEfTQ/s1600-h/IMG_0761.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5342831514848978242" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_AbBP0PQ8zik/SiWM9IlV5UI/AAAAAAAAACc/olDhW3OEfTQ/s320/IMG_0761.JPG" border="0" /></a> WHAT a dolly!<br /><br /><br /><br /><div></div><br /><br /><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_AbBP0PQ8zik/SiWL-ldHg_I/AAAAAAAAACU/ms0Bh6nDQ28/s1600-h/IMG_0802.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5342830440267351026" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_AbBP0PQ8zik/SiWL-ldHg_I/AAAAAAAAACU/ms0Bh6nDQ28/s320/IMG_0802.JPG" border="0" /></a>Daggy shot of madam with her new glasses. Nightmare trying to find ones to house those ridiculously long eyelashes!</div><br /><br /><br /><div><br /><br /><br /><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_AbBP0PQ8zik/SiWLXoXu1qI/AAAAAAAAACM/uLPaRvHIqFQ/s1600-h/IMG_0792.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5342829771035170466" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_AbBP0PQ8zik/SiWLXoXu1qI/AAAAAAAAACM/uLPaRvHIqFQ/s320/IMG_0792.JPG" border="0" /></a> Compliant (phew!) 4 yr old heading into CT scan. Clever poppet!</div><br /><br /></div></div></div><br /></div>EBDanihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17262663081899785074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1129811707537113634.post-86489833441940578212009-06-02T12:37:00.000-07:002009-06-02T13:21:14.640-07:00Update - coz I'm a slack ass!Howdy all. Will keep this updated as easier to put in one spot and keep a record. Be nice to be able to look back on this text and laugh in years to come going through all this crappola......the idea is DEFIITELY to come out intact in 5 years time and have little or no recollection of all this baloney.<br /><br />First thing is first:<br /><br /><br />O M G - I'm an 80's chick!! Shit a brick 'ey? Been a long time in the making but by jeez, by jingoes, by crikey it's kinda nice lemme tell you! Jumped on the scales yesterday (quite by default as I forgeot to these days, couldn't give a rats what I weigh to be perfectly frank) and lo and behold there is 89.8kg staring back at me - blow me down with a feather! Have next to no fill in my band at present due to me having it manually removed prior to my surgery as I was paranoid about vomitting this that and whatever with a 30cm incision straight down my guts - NOT an entertaining thought! Been enjoying the fruits of no fill though.....orgasmic to eat a crumpet or have a bread roll or chicken crumstick off a BBQ chicken. Fun best stop sometime soon though or I'll be back at 116kg in no time. D'oh!<br /><br /><br /><br />Heathwise:<br /><br />Guts of it is highly likely it's lymphoma (according to my ultra-clever female Professor rheumatologist) but more tests to be run and then that will assist with the diagnosis. My haematologist has excelled I must say and simply due to added years of experience I'm running pretty much with my rheumy as she's so damn clued up with everything it's not funny. Saw her yesterday morning for an hour and she was most impressed with my lever arch folder full of prior results *groan* but gave her a tonne of information in a short space of time so that was great. Lengthy physical ensued and she then said rheumatoid arthritis (definitely) however too much going on blood wise for that to be it, if you know what I mean? Her gut says lymphoma so she requested more realllllly curly flash named bloods to rule out other stuff and I see her again on 30th June. She has ordered that I have a nucleaur bone scan as there is so much joint activity and that the main problem with my shoulders (adhesive capsulitis) she doubted would be fixed in a hurry. Dammit - they kill and only let me sleep in 90 min blocks. Pffft!<br /><br />So bloods already completed and nucleur bone scan next Tuesday and she wants me to get a pulminologist running out of RNS (hospital) because now there is lung involvement with the lesions I'll need somebody looking after that organ alone. Pffft. She absoutely wants a biopsy from somewhere and when she was eyeing off the muscle in calf I all but went through the roof. She told me that she recently wrote a paper of sarcoid patients testing positive for sarcoidotis when an actual muscle was biopsied, rather than a lymph node.......ouch - a calf muscle that's just sitting there and minding it's own business????? She ruled out a biopsy of one of the lung lesions based on their location in my lungs...bummer! She said they're deep in the back and not bolt upright in the middle which is a safer position for them (!!) so performing a bronciowhateveroscopy they call that would be a bit of a fizzer she reckoned. Pulminologist will obviously know more.<br /><br /><br />So that's where I'm at. Fortunately both my poppets having a great run of late health wise......I do kinda spend autumn dreading winter being around the corner as both of their ENT problems REALLY flare up but so far so good, made up with that! Mackenzie powering at her little kindy (like, unbelievably so - blowing us all away!!) and Em plodding on at school and still buzzing she was one of the first 3 in the class to get her "Pen Licence" - all very fun stuff apparently when you're in Year 4. LOL<br /><br /><br />Will update with more next week I promise. Jeff stop worrying about me and get on with locking that beautiful daughter of yours up and slipping food under the door for the next 7 years! Yeah I tripped over a pic on Lisa's Facebook - since when did Ash quit being 3?????! ;0) and made me realise all the more I've just GOT to get over there to Perth sometime soon as been too long most definitely.<br /><br />Oh and one more sleep till my boy gets home - YAY! He's marginally bevvied at Heathrow as we speak as celebrating a great day in his London office but by God he's been through the wringer in the last week over there sorting out his Finlay (his son) stuff. Quick update on my stepson being 'whipped' by mothers boyfriend complete with leather glove in mouth and bruising cream applied to buttocks 2 days later *sob* but we've forced it to all be opened up again and the police are getting involved (just as DOCS equivalent in the UK should have had them the first time!!!!) and great knowing what's going to happen now and with new documentation will be able to scare the crap out of his mother to bin the boyfriend or we'll go for permanent custody here in Oz. She's REALLLY tight with her parents so they will see a copy of the Surrey Police Report and that'll pretty much spell out what's been going on and hopefully they will step in and apply more pressure for her to bin the prick! Got a good feeling that this time that's what she'll do and Fin (DSS) will be marginally happier again - that's the name of the game here most definitely. He (understandably!) wants to stay with his mother but unless she steps up to the plate and makes some tough calls then she can go to hell and we'll take him....what parent wouldn't want a child removed from that hideous situation. (Admittedly hasn't happened again but if it happened 3 times already who can guarantee is it won't happen again....?) Anyhoo just be happy to have my gorgy boy home - been a big few weeks in this household. *groan*<br /><br /><br />Nice chatting everyone..... By the by I saw a great quote on EB and really liked it so just to be super cheesy will sign off from it - really rings true for some reason:<br /><br /><em>"There are things that we don't want to happen, but have to accept, things we don't want to know, but have to learn, and people we can't live without, but have to let go." </em><br /><br />Author Unknown.<br /><br /><br /><br />TTFN!<br /><br />Dan xEBDanihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17262663081899785074noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1129811707537113634.post-10231496804325937582009-05-09T17:04:00.000-07:002009-05-09T17:16:27.035-07:00Weight update for my own records....<a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_AbBP0PQ8zik/SgYcxeG7Y3I/AAAAAAAAACE/41Baz1ESrqU/s1600-h/Weightloss.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5333982444888220530" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 146px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 155px" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_AbBP0PQ8zik/SgYcxeG7Y3I/AAAAAAAAACE/41Baz1ESrqU/s320/Weightloss.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>Weight: 93.0kg ▼18 kg</div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div>Bum: 114 cm ▼ 13½ cm</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>Bust: 114 cm ▼ 14 cm</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>Tummy: 121 cm ▼ 15 cm</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>Waist: 96 cm ▼ 15 cm</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>L. Thigh: 65 cm ▼ 6 cm</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>R. Thigh: 66 cm ▼ 5 cm</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>L. Arm: 34 cm ▼ 5 cm</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>R.Arm: 36½ cm ▼ 2½ cm</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>L. Calf: 41½ cm ▼ 6½ cm</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>R. Calf: 41 cm ▼ 6 cm</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>Neck: 36 cm ▼ 4cm </div><br /><div></div><br /><div></div><br /><div>Down 18kgs & 87½cm. Woo~Bloody~Hoo!</div><br /><div></div>EBDanihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17262663081899785074noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1129811707537113634.post-91578698264404747002009-05-09T11:11:00.000-07:002009-05-09T11:34:09.394-07:00Yet another "up the clacker" ultrasound....<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_AbBP0PQ8zik/SgXLM3VPFiI/AAAAAAAAAB8/tYPYHWkq10M/s1600-h/PLVIC+ULTRASOUND+MAY+8_23.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5333892755562108450" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 302px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 233px" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_AbBP0PQ8zik/SgXLM3VPFiI/AAAAAAAAAB8/tYPYHWkq10M/s320/PLVIC+ULTRASOUND+MAY+8_23.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_AbBP0PQ8zik/SgXKcZMISHI/AAAAAAAAAB0/cSGMFHAaogo/s1600-h/PLVIC+ULTRASOUND+MAY+8_1.jpg"></a><br />So the big black shadow is the 14cm'ish mass and that ball resting on the side of it is what's ruining all the fun. LOL If it was all just fluid it woulnd't bu that suss but given the solid bit in it (growing also) that's what the problem is. :-(<br /><div> </div><div> </div><div> </div><div> </div><div> </div><div> </div><div> </div><div> </div><div> </div><div> </div><div>Went for second opinion with v. lame gyno (supposedly pelvic sub-specialist) and made me realise that the gyn/oncologist I'm with is who I need to be with. One good thing the gyno requested was a pelvic u/s from a specialist place that that's ALL they do, they were exeptional with their knowledge and their imaging pics.</div><br /><br /><div></div><br /><br /><div>Report read:</div><br /><br /><div></div><br /><br /><div><em>EXAMINATION: Pelvic Ultrasound</em></div><br /><br /><div><br /><em>CLINICAL HISTORY: Pelvic mass<br />Previous history of hysterectomy<br />REPORT:<br />Consistent with the surgical history, the uterus is absent.<br /><br /></em></div><br /><br /><div><em>The left ovary measures 2.4 x 2.0 x 0.8 cm. It is normal in size, shape and echotexture. Colour Doppler Imaging showed no unusual neovascularisation. Posterior to the left ovary is a smaller tubular cystic lesion which measures 3.4 x 0.9 x 1.0 cm. This may be a hydrosalpinx.<br /><br />The right ovary is not seen separately from a complex cystic structure which measures<br /><strong>14.9 x 10.7 x 11.3 cm</strong>. Colour Doppler Imaging showed no unusual neovascularisation with Resistance Index of 0.4. It contains faintly echogenic fluid within, multiple vascular septations and a fixed solid lesion which measures <strong>3.0 x 2.9 x 3.0 cm</strong>. Vascularity is seen peripherally in the solid nodule on Colour Doppler Imaging demonstrating a Resistance Index of 0.4<br /><br />There are no other pelvic or adnexal masses seen.<br />There is no free fluid in the pouch of Douglas.<br /><br />CONCLUSION: The right ovarian cyst may be a dermoid but a cystadenoma is the other possibility, in view of its recent growth. Histopathological assessment would be of value.</em></div><br /><div><em></em></div><div></div><div></div><div> </div><div>It's just the damn size of the thing that keeps freaking me out! It's at the stage now where it's bloody painful. KInda feels like a prolapsed uterus that will fall out any tick of the clock, only difference being I no longer have a uterus! LOL</div><div> </div><div> </div><div>Best fly.....Endone & Xanax finally kicked in and I can move around without too muc grief so will go get come more shut eye I think. Thanks for listening to babble on, it's my speciality after all. ;-)</div><div> </div><div> </div><div>Dan x</div> <br /></div>EBDanihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17262663081899785074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1129811707537113634.post-17760009969869126072009-05-07T13:08:00.001-07:002009-05-07T13:27:58.543-07:00Happy Joy-Joy. NOT!<span style="font-family:lucida grande;">Well nothing to do with my weight loss journey, that's the least of my woes at the moment! ROFL Decided to add my journey here with what's going on at the mo with my health so that friends/family can read where I'm at without me having to run through it 8+ times a day.</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">CT - CHEST, ABDOMEN & PELVIS (inc. delayed images)</span></em><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><strong>History:</strong> Complex cystic lesion in the pelvis with mural solid component ? ovarian cystic mass lesion rather than hydrosalpinx. I note a chest x-ray done yesterday also demonstrated no discrete abnormality.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><strong>Technique:</strong> Post-contrast examination performed with arterial phase images obtained through the chest and portal venous and delayed images through the abdomen and pelvis.<br /></span><br /><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Findings:<br /></span></em><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><strong>Chest:</strong> The trachea is situated in the midline. No thyroid enlargement seen. No thyroid nodule noted.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">No significant mediastinal or hilar mass lesion identified. No chest wall or pleural speace abnormality detected. No effusion seen.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Minor lymphy glands are seen in both axillae.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">In the lung window display there are two small nodular lesions present. One measures 6mm in size and is in the lung apex at the anterior aspect. The second one is located in the posterolateral aspect of the left mid/lower lung field in close poximity to the pleura and measures approximately 18mm in size. Despite reviewing the chest x-ray performed yesterday I cannot visualise these two lesions in the plain PA or lateral view. No other focal lung abnormality detected. No other mass lesion or sonsolidation identified. Appearance of these two nodules is non-specific ? granulomata ? more sinister lesions. Comparison with previous CT scan in May 2008 demonstrated these two lesions are new findings.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">No other lung field abnormality seen. No pleural effusion noted.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><strong>Abdomen:</strong> There is a gastic band noted in situ and appears to be in reasonable position.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">There is no focal abnormality seen ion the liver, spleen, pancreas or kidneys except for a cortical cyst seen in the posteromedial aspect of the right kidney at its lower third. This measures 19mm in size. There is also a smaller cortical cyst seen on the lower pole of the left kidney. </span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Gallbladder and biliary tree appear normal.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">There is apparent splenomegaly with the spleen extending more than half the AP diameter of the abdomen. No focal lesion seen within the spleen.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">There is also minor lymph glands seen in the mesenteric root and adjacent to the mid abdominal aorta but based on size criteron they are likey to be of no clinical significance.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">There is also a fairly prominent proximal left ovarian vein noted extending from the inferior aspect of the mid left renal vein.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">In the pelvis there is a large sepated cystic mass lesion seen occupying most of the pelvis and lower abdomen. This measures 14 x 9.3 x 11.1cm in size and demonstrates septation and predominantly fluid density. At its right posterolateral wall therte is also a slightly denser and minimal contrast enhancing mural nodule present. This measures approximately 17mm in size. I note the history of possible hydrosalpinx but I feel this lesion is too rounded and septated in appearance and likely represents a cystic tumour of the ovary ? right ovarian origin rather than hydrosalpinx. Suggest correlation with clinical history. I note there was a question raised previously with possible oophorectomy in the CT report in 2008. In understand the patient is to have a second gynaecological opinion tomorrow.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Minor pelvic side wall lymph glands are also seen but no significant mass lesion or significant enlarged lymph nodes identified. The inguinal regions on both sides are normal.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">No lytic or sclerotic process identified.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">No obvious hydronephrosis or hydroreter detected in the delayed images.</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><strong>CONCLUSION:</strong> Large septated lobulated predominantly cystic mass lesion seen in the pelvis occupying nearly the whole of the pelvis and compressing onto the bladder at the superior aspect and extending into the lower abdomen. There is also apparent mural solid component present. Appearance is likey that of a large right ovarian cystic tumour.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Nodules seen in the left lung field in lung apex and in the posterolateral aspect of the left lower lung field. They were not seen in the precious examination in 2008. ? Possible secondary lesions or granulomata.</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">No hepatic secondary or pleural effusion/ascites seen.Splenomegaly.Bilateral renal cortical cysts. No over intra-abdominal lymphadenopathy identified. Minor lymph glands seen in the para-aortic region.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:lucida grande;">So yeah I'm in a v. weird headspace at the moment. Reckon my Zoloft dosage musn't be right coz I figure if I can still cry they're not working. ROFL Off to see a gyno pelvic sub-specialist this morning for another opinion....it's a given that the blob needs removing me but it's not sitting well that I have to wait until the 18th May for surgery. It's now causing pretty major discomfort 24/7 and I must admit not being able to take anti-inflammatories for my aching joints is doing me in. I kid you now I hobble around like some 75 year old hunchback old woman. I wish I could walk properly but all of the joints just aren't working right, tis a real pisser.</span><br /><br />Well I must say dragging this blog up it's made me realise I should probably measure up and see where I'm at weight wise - I know I've lost a good few more cm's even if not so reflected on the scales but with all this other hoo-hah on at present quite simply put the size of my thighs is of no real importance right now. Nice though as when it's out and I've healed from surgery (and hopefully I can talk the surgeon into taking out a little extra abdominal fat for the road!!) perhaps my ahem, girth, will be a good smidge less. YAY!<br /><br /><br />Thanks for reading whomever you are and I'll keep this updated as kinda nice being able to talk to myself and get my feelings down on paper (for lack of a better description) as helps me plough on through the day and not get so discouraged by new findings that keeping rearing their ugly heads. Push comes to shove my CA-125's aren't too hairy and I won't know if it's anything cancerous until the gungy bits come out and all get biopsied. Brill, then I've got full-blown menopause to get my head around.....my poor delicious husband and poor children, it'll be hell around her for the next few months! LOL<br /><br /><br />Laughing at the irony though because I was thinking back to when I made my decision to get the lapband in back when I hit 39 and saying to myself "For my 40th I'll give myself the gift of good health and quit being an obese fattyboomstix so I can be around a looooong time for my kids....and then this ovarian tumour had to go and ruin all the fun. :( So much for losing 20 kgs, feeling marvellous for it but now staring down the barrel at all this carry-on. Just want it all over with (the surgery) so I can know one way or the other. Think that's pretty normal too.<br /><br /><br />TTFN peoples!!!<br /><br />Dan xEBDanihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17262663081899785074noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1129811707537113634.post-37358976527132224702009-01-14T11:53:00.000-08:002009-01-14T12:40:55.262-08:00Well made up with the below stats! Sometimes I stress it's all not happening fast enough however I must remind myself I've hardly employed the services of a personal trainer 3 days a week! I really must start exercising, even if just a walk everyday, however I seem so fatigued at present I truly just cannot be assed. Very poor kidney function tests came back so much to sort out this week on that front........ I was so happy to see the back of 2008 that even now as I welcome in 2009 I have a horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach that this year will be hard slog for me, health wise that is. Oh well still gotta be good considering I've said goodbye to almost 17 kg that I'll never see again - that's got to help enormously - surely!<br /><br /><br /><br />Weight: 94.2kg ▼16.8kg<br /><br /><br />Bum: 117½cm ▼ 9½cm<br />Bust: 114cm ▼ 14cm<br />Tummy: 125cm ▼ 11cm<br />Waist: 100cm ▼ 11cm<br />L.Thigh: 68½cm ▼ 2½cm<br />R. Thigh: 68cm ▼ 3cm<br />L. Arm: 36cm ▼ 3cm<br />R.Arm: 36½cm ▼ 2½cm<br />L. Calf: 43cm ▼ 4cm<br />R. Calf: 44cm ▼ 3cm<br />Neck: 36cm ▼ 4cm<br /><br /><br />▼ 16.8kg & 61cm. Woo~Hoo!<br /><br /><br />On track to look semi-decent for when my husband turns 50 and when I turn 40 .... much to look forward too!EBDanihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17262663081899785074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1129811707537113634.post-74295608528886337102008-09-20T00:22:00.000-07:002008-09-20T00:32:48.267-07:0020th September 2008<br /><br />It's working!! ☺<br /><br /><br />Weight: 104.2kg ▼6.8kg<br /><br />Bum: 123cm ▼ 5cm<br />Bust: 117cm ▼ 5cm<br />Tummy: 130cm ▼ 6cm<br />Waist: 102cm ▼ 9cm<br />L. Thigh: 72cm ▼ 1cm<br />R. Thigh: 70cm ▼ 1cm<br />L. Arm: 37½cm ▼ 1½cm<br />R.Arm: 37½cm ▼ 1½cm<br />L. Calf: 44cm ▼ 3cm<br />R. Calf: 44cm ▼ 3cm<br />Neck: 40cm ▼ 2cm<br /><br />▼ 6.8kg & 38cm. Woo~Hoo!EBDanihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17262663081899785074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1129811707537113634.post-51042902389079083432008-07-30T20:31:00.000-07:002008-07-30T20:48:12.709-07:00The "obsession" with food still continues *hmmmph*I guess one of the things I got my head around when I chose to go down the Lap Band road was that my love affair with food must come to an abrupt halt. The sheer fact that <strong>to me</strong> food = joy, rather than food = fuel. I gave myself repeated stern talkings to in the lead up to surgery that obsessing about food was going to be (dammit!) a thing of the past....yet here am I am on Day 7 post-op and I can't see there ever being a time that food won't be my obsession. Bit peeved about that. Now it's not because I just can't stop dreaming about how heavenly a piece of turkish toast laden with butter & vegemite would taste right now but because you so have to stop and T H I N K about everything that passes your lips and even more so <em>when</em> it passes your lips - so all winds up a bit of a logistical headache to be perfectly frank. <br /><br />Yes, one has to remember to cease drinking ½ hr before eating and not to recommence till an hour or so afterwards, that alone does my brain in. I had my baby girl in hospital last night and was trying the tempt her with some boiled rice and without even thinking popped some in my mouth as to show her it was yum. THEN I remembered my lacky band and crapped myself! Never bolted to a bin so quickly in my life and spat something out - my 4 year old cracked up laughing because it all must have looked so funny ~ Mama putting a tiny bite of rice in her mouth, then panicing, then bolting to spit it out. Cheeky madam! So yeah things like that happen and it kinda scares me a bit. I wonder if people ever 'forget' they've got a band and just Go for Gold without really realising....? Anyway that's just spooked me a bit because it made me realise that from here on in anything that passes my lips will have to be a thought out decision, and in my eyes that kinda sucks as that sure takes a fair bit of spontainaity outta life hey?<br /><br /><br />So I'm on Day 8 now and deseperately trying not to be a SW (scale whore. LOL) Gets a bit stupid when you get on the bloody things every morning, leaves nothing to look forward to next Monday morning I reckon. Do I feel any different? No, not really. Have I noticed a difference in my clothes? Nah, being a SAHM and living in trakkies it'll take a while for me to notice I reckon. ROFL Already had one comment that I'm looking slimmer and this is from a chum that knows nothing about the surgery - so at least I know the comment is kosher and not just to pump me up. ;-)<br /><br /><br />Best fly and do some housework. Have 1000 steps left to do of my quota today, loving my pedometer!<br /><br /><br />Dan xEBDanihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17262663081899785074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1129811707537113634.post-36521153579745370692008-07-29T03:53:00.000-07:002008-07-29T04:07:36.453-07:00Shit, a lot can change in 3 months hey?Realised I'd cranked this up and thought easier to just add to it rather than do another one from scratch...<br /><br />'Tis now end July and after going up another coupla kilos (yeah those TF shakes were realllllly good *insert rolling eyes*) decided to bite the bullet and hit the husband up for a lazy 6K and pick some poor bastard to whack a lacky band in my stomach. Said lacky band now in place and I'm sitting at about Day 9 post-op. I'll be bloody honest and say that this sure sounded like a much better idea a fortnight ago but in for a penny and all that old tosh hey?<br /><br />Bit of info:<br /><br />4 days after I turned 39 I was in hospital having Dr Roy Brancatisano from "Circle Of Care" (cheesy business name but top set-up!) whack a Lap-Band in me. The day of the OP was a bit of a shocker and was really only on about Day 5 I didn't feel like I needed to be so gingerly with it all - bloody still hurts though, make no mistake!! Took all the dressings off tonight (mmmm, there's a vision - DON'T hold that thought!) and seem to be healing up okay'ish but tonight my shoulder tip pain is the worst it's been since the procedure - bloody kills. Must say the box of Endone is winking at me but trying not to be all wussy and pop (read: crush) pills if I reallly don't have too.<br /><br />Anyway some stats whilst I still remember them:<br /><br />8th July - initial consult with CoC - 113.2kgs. (Farrrrrrk a duck!)<br /><br />18th July - after Optiyuking in preparation for the surgery ~~~ ↓ to 110.4kgs <br /><br />23rd July - Actual operation<br /><br />28th July - Weigh in was ↓ to 108.4kgs<br /><br /><br />So yeah in 20 days neat I'd shaken 4.8kgs. Bit bloody happy with that just quietly!! 'Tis funny because if somebody said that to me I'd be piping up with "Oh yeah, sure it was fat.....if it's that much of course you're only losing water. Duh!" but knowing what had passed my lips since the 8th of July I would bet my house that I have really lost the weight - Christ how could one not?!<br /><br /><br />Shoulder tip pain doing me in so will scoot.....youngest daughter going in for tonsills/adenoids out tomorrow so bit sidetracked stressing with all that - keeps my mind off being hungry though (which I'm actually not) I guess hey?<br /><br /><br />Nice Chatting,<br /><br />DaniEBDanihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17262663081899785074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1129811707537113634.post-18039419865341172522008-04-01T03:20:00.000-07:002008-12-08T17:48:51.243-08:00<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_AbBP0PQ8zik/R_IPkek8DGI/AAAAAAAAAA8/js-nOMHGgoA/s1600-h/CIMG7112.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5184223240414563426" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_AbBP0PQ8zik/R_IPkek8DGI/AAAAAAAAAA8/js-nOMHGgoA/s320/CIMG7112.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><div></div>EBDanihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17262663081899785074noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1129811707537113634.post-47580396023969454002008-04-01T02:50:00.000-07:002008-04-01T03:12:52.549-07:00Farrrrrk!Well I'll just be talking to myself with this blog whatsidoodad - I figure it's easier than me being all cheesy and picking up a pen and writing in a diary. *groan*<br /><br />In short I'm here to give myself a good dressing down for becoming such a lazy sloth. I have no effing idea how I let myself get so beastly (OK, coulda been the unlimited food and zip exercise) and up past 110kg but high time I took the bull by the horns and sorted it out.<br /><br />It's funny I, like most other fattyboomstix people have had many a "lightbulb moment" where you think if you hold that thought you can do about anything. I've lost count of how many lightbulb moments I've had but the clincher came last weekend as I was feeling a tad sad about my Mothers 10 anniversary of her death creeping up. A smidge of history....<br /><br />My Mum and I fought like cat and dog for the better part of my whole life really. She actually adopted me at 10 days old and despite all that I was hers and she was mine, I loved her as any daughter loves their mother. Then she died. Shit, that wasn't in the plan. :-( She was only 52 years old and had so much ahead of her. I was angry for a looooong time that she smoked and this inevitably led to her early death.........I was pissed off that with her smoking all her life this gave her lung/brain/spinal cancer and robbed me of my mother, I was just 30 years old. Then last weekend I had another "lightbulb moment" in relation to my weightloss plans (lottttts of thinking and v. little doing!) and I realised that what my Mum did to me I could essentially be doing to my daughters. Everytime Mum put a cancer stick in her mouth she was well aware of the dangers. Am I any different for eating like a pig and being morbidly obese and not looking after myself? Hell my kids are only 8 & 3½ too!! I got blood results back and amazing on how 4 sheets of A4 you can all but see your life flash before you. My cholesterol is through the roof, my anaemia is diabolical, and every other level that was measured was pretty crap. Push comes to shove I am 172cm tall and should weigh about 70kgs...as of 31st March 2008 I weighed in at 111.0 ~~ jesus mary & joseph!!! I could carry my weight till about 90 kgs but the last 20kg just turned me into the classic 'fat chick' and I hate it. Didn't hate it enough clearly to stop shovelling whatever I wanted into my mouth at any time of the day, oops.<br /><br />So that's where I'm at. I'm really hanging onto the thought about not doing to my kids what I felt Mum did to me. I felt she knew the risks and gambled, and subsequently lost, however I now know the risks of my obesity and I'm not making a poor choice like my Mum - I'm not 'gambling', my kids are too precious and too damn young!<br /><br />In short I'll be as happy as a pig in whatsit if I can get to 90kgs...that truly would be my goal, even though it's still 20kg over where I technically should be. It's just that if I think of it like that I would have to lose about 40 kgs all up and quite simply that's too damn mega to even get my head around, I'll focus on 20 and shut up.<br /><br />My plan? Ummm, dunno. Essentially just change from whatever I've been doing up till now, because clearly it's not worked. LOL I've bought the Tony Ferguson shakes for a bit of a laugh but moreso so I have somewhere to go each and every Monday to weigh-in...I really need that accountability I think. So yeah doing the meal replacement thingies morning and lunch and then just doing whatever I want for dinner. Push comes to shove I guess I would rather the journey took me 2 years rather than 7 months of pure hell IYKWIM? Slow and steady wins the race and my problem is 'head hunger' rather than actual hunger so I'm getting better at picking up on that.<br /><br /><br />STATS:<br /><br />Weight: 111.0<br /><br />Height: 172cm<br /><br />Bum: 128cm<br /><br />Tummy: 136cm<br /><br />Waist: 111cm<br /><br />Thighs: 73cm<br /><br />Arms: 39cm<br /><br />Calf: 47cm<br /><br />Neck: 40cm<br /><br /><br /><br />Cripes, that's depressing. Oh well onwards and upwards hey?<br /><br /><br />C'mon Dano ~ you CAN do it!!! FFS just stick at something longer than 72 hours and do something about your weight....you deserve it, as do your babies!!!<br /><br /><br /><br />TTFN.EBDanihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17262663081899785074noreply@blogger.com0